I went to bed really early last night.
The cravings were killing me.
Not literally, but almost.
I nearly came to tears as the desire for a cigarette consumed me.
But I did not give in!!
As I slipped into my bubble bath - I craved one.
Before I went to bed - I craved one.
When my eyes opened to a new day - I feigned one.
When did my whole life turn into smoke??
I have been told the first day is the hardest.
Today, day Two, is hard as hell.
And if you have ever read the bible and learned anything about hell...
Then you KNOW this is HARD!!!!!
I try to keep my self busy-
I got up and at 8a.m. blew leaves and raked!!!
I have read half a book, and dusted and vaccumed.
My tree is still up but I will have to save that for Monday.
If I do all of my projects in one day- boredom will make me fall of the wagon.
Now I am blogging.
I bet this poor guy is on day 3. I can't imagine what tomorrow is going to be like.
I am struggling here.
There are tears running down my face.
OH MY I have turned into pookie the cigarette head !!!!
Ok OK . Pull your self together Misty!!!!
(Deeeeep Sigh) I'm ok.
Just had a moment.
Thank you for letting me vent.
The Craving has passed and I am drying my face now.
I pray that tomorrow is better.